The traffic monster

He tore off his mask and revealed his hideous monstrosity features underneath his handsome suit. His eyes were blood red and he was fuming with anger. He bared his teeth and showed his fangs. When the light turned green, Arffffggh!!! He sprinted forward and blocked the whole passage, not allowing anyone to cross over. And seeing this, those behind him follow suit and all, clenched their knuckles while marching forward. Unity is power and so, they blocked the whole passage to their heart delight. No guilt. No conscience. 

There was no justice. Law was broken. In fact, what is law to these monsters? 

Well, you can see this act along Jalan Sentul at 8am or I believe, any roads with traffic lights and terrible jam. 

Though rested after a night, their heart were faint, the bodies aching and exhausted. They did what they did because being selfish was "right" when everyone is doing the same thing. 

We are human, imperfect human. Though living in a civilized society, we still acted uncivilized. When push comes to shove, we would do anything to achieve our needs than of others. We need to be constantly watched to keep our masks intact or we will reveal our monstrous features. 

I believed many of us get stuck on the road often. And sometimes, it was due to selfish people who blocked the whole road when there was obviously no space to move forward. And when our light turned green, we couldn't go because our road was blocked by that hideous monster. And sometimes, people just stopped at the yellow box, not allowing others to pass by, "just-to-be-sure" that no one can cut into their lane. 

Where is love? Where is patience? Where is kindness?

Yesterday I went to the market and asked for dried chilies to cook curry. The old uncle took out a box of dried chilies and said, "Here you are..choose..."

I said, "Uncle, I just need three."

He replied kindly, "Sure, choose la..."

And after taking three from the box, I asked the price. He said, "It's ok. Just take it."

I smiled and said, "It's a business, uncle. I should pay."

He asked for 10 cents. 

A small gesture of kindness is like a candle. Though burning oneself, it illuminates the whole room and let others see things clearly. How good it is if this baton of kindness can be passed on from one person to the next...

May you drive with patience and kindness tomorrow...

Discontentment and envy

I first started out my blog with the hope that it would draw readers from around the world and I would then be able to earn through their clicks on the ads. But how foolish or naive I have been! I spent endless hours on cooking and taking photographs and typing out the recipes and so forth but whenever I checked my income, I found that I had not even earned a single cent, I was angry, disappointed, sad, lousy...

Then I told myself, regrets upon regrets, I shall never do the same foolish thing. I started with a wrong motive! Earning income is nothing wrong but earning income at the expense of neglecting my son? My son was around 2 when I first started this blog. I was angry when he woke from his nap which interrupted my work. I neglected him to prepare dishes that's complicated. I was not found when he needed me most. What was I doing? In the hope to make a daily entry for my blog so that it could be seen at the top of the search page. But no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't make it to the top. Well, obviously someone who's great in IT is paid to do such job and as poor as I am, how could I afford to pay to be at the top and then wait...wait for the opportunity to earn cents through clicks?

Today, I read a popular blog. Again, I felt, why can people do it but not me? I was green with envy. 

I lack confidence, consistence and persistence. 

I gave up on things too easily. But I told myself, I will try again. But this time, I won't do it on the expense of my kids because my kids are worth far greater than money. When they need me, I will be there. I will put this down and be with them...